nothing much to say about today, well, went home as usual because Tiffany is going out with her stead. Estee and Shirley have something on. is like, i guess my class got too few girls. )): class only got 12 girls, overall actually only have 10 girls have been coming to school regularly i guess? including me. separated by 3 cliques. 2 in one, 4 in one, and me, Tiffany, Estee and Shirley in one(:. because the 3 cliques of us are all from different world. so yeah, going out with them have a weird feelings.(:. i hope i can bring back the time, where me,Tiffany,Estee,Shirley,Chenyee,Donglun and Sherman together playing and slacking at playground. we had fun and so much laughter. i guess it could never be back again, Shirley have her own friends in CCA too, she won't be free so often now. Estee's mother doesn't allow her to reach home late, Tiffany and Donglun are always together and hiding so much secrets between themselves[i don't really like it] and Sherman have his own friends to mix with, Chenyee is hate by Donglun and Sherman, have no idea why. )):, why can't we just be as happy as last time? hais. no way we can already ya? i am actually feeling kinda sad right now, feel like crying when i miss the past. and i am getting more and more sensitive, no longer as strong as last time. hais.. i've went bonker.
The translation for ζδΈι
This street is too crowded,
Too many people with secrets,
At the glass, there's the fog hiding on it,
The sulky face of yours,
Is completely the rain,
This street is simply too narrow to return to the story,
These days are not green anymore,
Just a few words exchanges,
I'm left alone in the house, with half-filled memories,
The seats in the cinema,
Are separated far by distance,
Feelings with no partner is a game of chess you played by yourself,
It's still too late to carefully write down your concern,
describing how i love you,
Yet you leave me away with a smile,
This feeling is not right anymore,
I tried to retrieve,
A bit feeling of care but i didn't give,
The many wish from your lips is very pretty and low,
i neglected to compromise it,
However you want some company,
Ahh, this feeling is not right anymore,
I'm the last to understand,
Looking through the pages of circumstances which cannot be endured
You're so tired,
You've silently cried behind my back for so many times,
So shallow,
Yet my heart breaks and you accepted my sin, your beauty,
I am not worthy.
`since you don't need me anymore, neither do i?! `
`you've learnt to be strong, that's amazing,
`i should learn something from you too.
`since you' think you can just go on in your life
`without any other people judges and comments.
`you take good comments as some rubbish,
`what for saying more? since it's useless to you?
`what for wanting me to forgive you? i guess you're just joking.
`human feelings are not meant for you to joke with anyhow.
`i can't tolerate this, i totally can't! no matter how hard i tried, i just can't.
`so please stop thinking that i am an invisible robot,
`i do get hurt, because i am a girl, i am just a girl hello,
`i couldn't do anything to you, except for crying for you?
`Why don't you ask, why does girls usually cry for you?
`because people are in love with you, you will never know that.
`you can never taste what's the feeling of hurt.
`because to you, everything is just a creep jokes.
`no mentality, no wisdom, no emotional, and nothing.
`this world is nothing to you, except for games , fun and jokes.
`you hurt me again and again, it's totally uncountable.
`because it's more than a millions time.
`i was planning to be with you moreover,
`perhaps, i really shouldn't.
`because it's not worth.
`let me go, set me free, i am staying single.
`i don't need you, because i don't love you anymore.
`i swear i really don't, i am not pretending either.
`yeah, and thanks, for letting me have this chance to going back to realistic
`goodbye. we're no longer friends, we're just stranger..(: take care.
-emo world is back to me, thanks. maybe i deserves; i shall take it as a punishment for being stupid.
