Today suppose to go out with the nose family, but they last minute say cancelled. so i told my mum i not going lor, then just now they say meet at ica! Hais, i think better not ba, because i already told my mum i not going out anywhere today already. i felt so emo... )): i don't know why i just want to cry all the times whenever i think of that problem, but i just can't cry out and i really felt terrible and miserable! hais.. but luckily i still have a gohonzon at home to pray for. i really hope that there are no more fights, arguments, gossiping, hurting comments about others in soka gakkai! and obviously i don't want anymore insulting here and there. we should treat each other as a one big family, and we should try to change each others mistakes and not hate each other, nor live lives without integrity's. if you know yourself is in wrong then don't twist fact around!((: [i am not saying anyone don't worry they are just my feelings] just try to change your mistakes, that's what i am trying to do now.
Now, i felt much more better because my honey!((: Tiffany and Joslyn chat with me, they support me in everything i do. hahas thanks girls. i love you!!((: but i am sorry! Marilyn, Amanda, Sihuay and Jiamin! for not meeting you girls today, maybe next time yea? loves you all. and lets celebrate Christmas on Wednesday with cihui okays? and about cihui!! OHMYGOD!! i missed you so dam much girl!((: i love you! hahas.... Anyway, school is opening soon, i can see everyone in my class finally. yeah!!((: i missed everyone in 1E' o7 hahahas. x33s
. boy, i am not so sure if you are really dislike me or not? but i know i still have to give up you, because i can feel that there wouldn't be any happiness even if we are together, i hope the girl you like will love you more than me, so i will willing to force myself to leave((: i really wanna tell you, i do love you. i cried for you, my tears are for you, and i do misses you! i really wanna hug you and say goodbye to you. because we will be apart soon. though i don't want to. i am really too tired to love you already, i am sorry. i shouldn't have love you in the first place, i know i am a annoyed to you! please forgive... but no matter how you hate me, i will never hate you. i am falling into pieces. thanks for letting me know whats regret and hurt. .